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Hello. My name is TengkuSuerayaHanie.
i HATE hypocrytes and manipulaters
Currently being forced to gain knowledge in SMKUSJ13
I LOVE TO CRAP , SERIOUSLY haha

see me , talk to me , walk away frm me BUT remember me fr a lifetime (:

yesterday's mean-ness ? i fought wth aimeen . haihs . you knw wht , i love him too much ! and i hate the fact tht i really do ! ishk . even if i do love him too much bt tht doesn't mean tht he loves me too much too ! haihs . maybe the way he treated me shows tht he does love me too much bt ppl cn pretend . and me saying ths does nt mean tht i dnt trust him . bt i've been through many thngs tht has made me to feel traumatised . hoh . hmm . trust is all we need bt seems like he don't . he looks lkike he doesn't trust me . which obviously will and has stressed me up so badlyy , haihs . i cnt deal wth ths stuff anymore ! fr the frst time in like 6 mnths i cried jst because i've gotten into a fght with him . weird ? i knw . i ws so stressed up ystrday tht i let it all out to the frm threes . poor them . bt too bad ! :| . i shouted at them . well , i ws the keeper and i am supposed to shout bt nt tht loud . i ws shouting wth all my voice man ! it felt like my larynx ws abt to burst ! mmm . my face ? haha . :((((((((((((((((((( . like tht . i had an arguement wth him all nght and he fell asleep so we continued at 5am today . mmm . till school and continued until i went back hom . nw ? i kn w tht we're still keeping the feeling of , you knw , urrghhh !!! mmm . i dnt knww . well , just see hw long cn THIS go on . :|

today's mean-ness ?? i killed a rat !!! shirt . bt i had to . i mean we . haihs . the evidents ?? i'll steal sme pics from sara and samira later . :) fr nw ? i'll just tell you wht happened . omg i cut the rat's body open ! damn . it ws like a post mortem . well , it is a post mortem ! :0 haha . ppoor rat . i love you and i thnk tht you're cute ! bt i had to kill you since it ws a yearly project and by my knowings , lots of rats have been killed fr the past years . and it ws all because of bioligy ! so if you wan to blame anybody , blame Pn . Norasyikin . :p . i sw the rat's intestines and liver and all those organs . and omg the smell !!! cnt deal with that ! and my hand , gosh . the rat's blood . haihs . i ws this close to cry . haha . ask amer , samira , sara and hazim . i ws like aaaahhhhhh .... haha . bt it ws the best experience evr ! wht ? you mean killing a rat ?? yeahh . it ws fun ! haha . i mean , when we took out all of the intestines and liver and kidney its heart is still beating !! hw cool is tht ?? haha . amazing ! well , i'll put up the pics l;ater aite ! byee ~~ and wish ,me well with my boyf busyuk ! haihs .

lalala~
today ?? probs of cpls ! hoh ! all my bestfs have their own probs with their boyfs ! haihs . why ?? haha . i've got my own prob ! bt THANK GOD i've settled it ! huhu . serious seksa ! mmm . anis ?? i dnt knw laa . i , myself dnt understand ayed . well , better keep myself frm meddling wth someone else's prob ! ngee ~ samira ?? HAHAHAHAHA !! afif la tuh sam ! terima jelah !! haha . she has a stalker in her life !! well maybe it's probably because she's TOO HOT fr our school ! haha . :p sbar samira ! sarah plak ? heiiyaaa .. the most complicated case i've ever heard ! haha . sorry sara ! if i am in her plce , i'd be breaking down evry nght ! hmmm !!!

today ?? lepak-ed rmah samira ! hee . best glaa . we had so much fun ! ngeh ! kn samira kn ?? huhu . bestbest ! then , balek . gla penat !! mmm . tmr plak ade peejay ! haha . BOSAN !! then the next day ade tryouts fr handball . PLEASEEEE BDAK JUNIOR WHO'S INTERESTED IN PLAYING HANDBALL . JOIN IN LAHH !! we're short of players fr u-15 lh ! haihs . F.Y.I !! tournament and handball best .. jgn nyesall .. :p haha . serious !!
bored bored ! ohh !! i frgt smthng , I LOVE AIMEEN SAYANG !! ngee ~~

hallo ! bored to death !! huhu . nthng to do , wht , you mean except sidai kain and angkat kain ?? haha . miss him !! ngee ~ you knw wht ?? mmm . nthng laa . haha . damn bored man !! haihs . bye lah ! :p

quicksilver ?? tht day cnt get any better ! i spent the WHOLE day with aimeen sayang , anis sayang and ayed ANNOYING ! huhu . best glaaaa . aimeen ws like guarding me ALL the time ! ilovehim !! iloveanis too !! she ws sooo cute ! haha . yeahh . it ws soooo crowded ! and cold ! hmmm . so much fun !

haihs . cant wait !! huhu . tmr tktw nk pkai pe laaa . ade la plak aimeen sayang nk blanja shopping . of crse lh i tkmw . i'm most certainly NOT a gold digger okayh !! haha . comel la dia . love him ! love him ! love him ! mmm . tmr serious tktw nk pkai pe ! hah !! hw ?? haiyaaa . huhu . today ? bestbest ! ngee ~
bye lah ! dnt knw wht to say lah ! :))

today ? kuar g summit with amer , samira and adib !! huhu . best la gakk . itinerary sebenar actually nk pegi beli tikus and katak ! wanna knw why ?? because of biologyy . huhu . damn you bio !! kne bedah katak and tikus laa . eeeuuuww !! haha . verry disgusting !! if rats or hamster bley tahan lg ! bt ini katak ?? yucks !! huhu . bt tkpee !! courage is all tht i need ! rght ?? mmm . lepak summit best ! amer blanje shakeys la plak ! syg you amer ! cheyh . dan2 je ! huhu , syg betooll !! ngee~ syg samira and adib gaakk !! :)))

haihs . internet slow la plak !! tension gilaa !! huhu . tk jmpa lagi la tckt fr quicksilver ! haahh !! lagi la stress ! huhu . mana maw cari ?? tkpe ah . tnggu amer jee la . :)) whyy la tuhan mnguji hidup gue ?? haha . and nw i'm like sooooo bored ! nothng to do la . hee . haihs . bosan bosan bosan ! tmr thaipusam !! haha . hmm . let me tell you smethng , new frnds doesn't always suppose to be good ! they tend to just stabs you in the back with all the thngs tht you've taught them ! fr example , ths stpd donkey USED to be my frnd . or shld i say our frnd ? mmm . she ws soooo nice to us . she ws kin of a low profile girl (nt to say tht i'm an ' up ' kid or wht ) , then we , to be specific , me and teyra , introduced her to a bunch of ppls tht does n even knw her before ths . soo , long story short , she became famous and automatically when she ws okay with us , she ws influenced with our attitude . then NOW she is acting like she's all tht and pretending tht we were the one who backstabs her or wtv . wtf ?? mmm . see , i've met a LOT of ppl who's the just like her . and yet i'm still being frndlyy to those who's new . well , i dnt mean tht just because you're new i dnt want to talk to you or wtv BUT maybe i should be careful nw . bt the thng is , if i meet some new frnds i'll be friendly to them and being their bestfrnd a minute later . without knowing their REAL attitude . it's really sickening you knw tht . damn sickening ! there's a LOT of new students coming in this year . and i've met someone who's JUST like tht ! bt ths time , she's a bit diff . when school starts and she's got no frnds , she ws with us . she went everywhere with us . okayy . finee . bt then two of her frnds came in . then she ditched us . like wtf ?? do you thnk tht we're some kind of a doormat or somethng ?? i spesifically HATE tht type of baboons ! who the fuck do you think you are ?? so great ?? ohh pls , i dnt even talk to tht kind of person okay ! so DONT even thnk about me talking to you ever ! you cn just get lost with those types pf attitude . i dnt need frnds like you ! i now have my own frnds whom i love and appreciate . dont even thnk tht i need you guys in my life ! i hate hypocrits , liars , ditchers , pretenders , followers , and all those gediks grls who's befriending me just to get to knw my guy frnds . you guys cn GET LOST !

weyy ... tk bley bla . huhu . haihs . skool ?? okayy laa . mengantuk ya amat !! bt okay laa . pg2 lg aimeen sayang dh mnggdik !! buekk !! huhu . then perhimpunan MCAM sial !! huhu . ngok nye sim and vijaya ! :pp well , today mmg sgt happy ngn aimeen sayang !! yeay !! bru lpas gado la kott smlm . hee . lme tk gado . tmau2 !! tmau gado !! huhu , andd , pg2 lg samira sayangg ckp ade org nk knal ! , fuhh ! smangat gue nk blaja ! haha , perasan lbeyy . heeee ~~ bestbest frnds ngn dorang ! ngee ~ andd , today cm tkde pe sgt laa . okay okay jee . huhu . nk story pe pn ? mmm . nthng to say lg . haiiiiihhhs !! gla byk hw !! benci ! benci ! heee ~~ spe plak yg ske bwt hw ?? TMR CUTI !! haha . batu caves mari ! ayuh ayuh ! weyl weyl ! haha . hoh ! quick pe cte ?? haihs . no tckt lg maa !! cari cari !! tnggu amer laa . heee ~ camane ?? pkir pkir dulu . huhu . okays laass .. bosan ! byee~~

let me hold you ?? haha . the word i'm thnkng rght nw . i knw , weird !! well , who doesn't knw me ?? i AM weird ! tht's why sometimes i wonder tht do my boyf , huhu , be ashamed of my behaviour ?? haha . actually i dnt care . bt 'sometimes' laa , i jst wonder . :) and and , i ALWAYS thnk about my characteristics and my personality . jst to be the best !! see , i always try to be the best fr everyone ! bt do they care ?? mmm .. dnt thnk so . and they dnt even care abt hw i feel . haaaahhh .. why the hell am i like this ?? huhu . TER emo kjapp !! well , sometimes i love love love to thnk deeplyy . which i think is nt good ! as it'll eat you ALIVE ! haha . trust me ! i knw ! mmm .. sweetest girl . second word i'm thinking . who's the sweetest girl ?? do you knw ?? i've never met any sweet grl around me . i did . haha . bt she's nt . soo , lesson learnt ?? nt everyone's perfect ! bt eventhough ppl do say tht phrase , doesn't mean you can't try to be perfect rght ?? being perfect is never wrng ! i dnt thnk it's wrong . bt SOME ppl use the term perfest wronglyy . their 'niat baek ' allways derive to somethng else . whyy ?? haihs . see !! i'm thinking AGAIN !! sometimes i wish to be thnkng like a 5 year pld . see , when i ws 5 , i dnt thnk too much . and tht ws great . i mean , thnkg too much doesn't always comes up with a good result . sometimes thnkng too hard just makes us or ME to make a wrong decision . yeahh . i knw , weird . mmm .. and cn you like observe and just think abt the phrase " think before you talk " or "think before you do somethng " ?? okay maybe the second phrase ws my phrase ! haha . back to the frst phrase , mmm . just imagine someone giving a late respond after you just gve him/her a quest ?? just because he/she is thnkng before saying anythng ? isn't tht awkward ?? then dia kne pnggl blurr la plak because of the late respond . hah ?? hw ? we can't thnk everytime we wnt to open our mouth ! tht's just too weird fr me . i mean sometimes we tend to say somethng harsh . and we tend to lie . sng cte , life is too complicated ! serious ! actually its nt life bt ppl ! ppl are complicated ! because of different ppl , different thnkng or preception on somethng . so , tht'll complicate thngs . mmm . so my advice is just go with the flow and NEVER regret of somethng tht you did or say . we need to just thnk somethng to cover up the mistakes tht we've made . rght ?? thnk fr the future . if we keep regretting our mistakes , we cnt live . BUT learn from our mistakes laa . tht's for sure .
and ppl say tht we MUST pick a good frnd . hw ? cn you imagine someone having ALL the good frnds in the wrld ? then wht abt the others ? mmm .. well , evry person must and do hve a bad frnd . wait wait , i dnt knw wht's the purpose of saying this . okay okayla , maybe its because of frnds ! frnds . i've heard a story abt ths girl . ppl say she's very quiet . she doesn't say much . tht time maybe dia ade frnds laa . best frnds . bt since she's already hve a new frnd which is VERY bad ! she dithched her old frnds and be frnds wth her new frnds . wth ?? wht's all tht ?? haihs . tahlaa . frnds makes me think . and you knw tht i hate to think ! mmm ..
fr nw ? i hate my lfe . i dnt knw whyy . well , toodles lah then . :(

damn ! bored ! haha . no life weyhh !! today i woke up at 11 . haaahh !! supposatelyy 6am to get my ass up and go jogging . SUPPOSATELYY ! haha . but as always , i'll be thngking 'alah , ptg lah jogging ! ' . typical hani ! mmm . then dh mndi2 , turun then mlas la plak nk mkn . rice ! no lah ! starch turns to glucose blablabla then turns into FAT ! hah ! cnt afford tht ! haha . bru dpt tw yg ade party next weekend . mmm . care to go ?? HELL YEAHH !! haha . lagoon la kott . rm30 !! 30 ! haihs . mntk early monthly allowance ! haha . agk2 bleyy ??? nk pegi , nk pegi ! ishk . stress lah if pkir2 ! haha . serious !! how how ?? aimeen sayang plak tempang-tempang tkkanlah dia nk partay ?? well , if nk ckp tk payah ajk , he's my freaking lovable boyf !! so its a MUST fr me to be thre with HIM ! dimestikan ! haha . if not habeslah i'll melt in the hands of HOT guys ! haha . gatal , gatal !! ingt the word LOYAL lahhh .. huhu . yeapyeap . mmm . kayh back to the part where pning2 pkir cane nk pegi the party . huhu . transport ? teyra is going and she asks me to go and suro aimeen sayang find a ticket for me . hah ?? ingt dia kuli ? huhu . iman is selling the tickets so tk pyah la sshkn aimeen sayang . hee . these thngs must be planned awl2 lg . fr example , bju pe (hoh ! pnting2 ! haha .) and and effy ? samira ? anis ? sarah ? dorang pegi tk ?? well , i cnt go alone !! rght ?? soo .. all the plannings will be happening in school pg2 buta at our beloved smk usj 4's canteen . huhu . haihs . NK PEGI laaaahhh .... must ask aimeen sayang first !! priorityy !! haha . hmmm .. bored la neways ! wht to do ?? nothing !! weekends je ddk rmah ! mcm prisoner !! i didn't do anythng wrong pn kne grounded ! huhu . okay okayla . bye lah ! muahmuah . huhu .

this blog is like the 4th blog i've wrote today ! haha . so bored !! well , just studied add maths . haihs . wtf is alpha and beta is nayway ?? i dnt freakin care laa . ishk . dhla no crdt !! gla bosan !! huhu . and and bleyh plak heboh psl gado ngn 'dt grl ke boy ?' kt rmai org ?? haihs . mlut besar !! mmm .. tdi skool ?? bosan . rmah ?? bosan . haha . nthng pon .. jst today cm pegi skool and tk blaja sehabuk ponn . huhu . stakat kotorkan bju and bazirkan biozip mama jee . haha . AND jmpa aimeen sayang .. hee . yeay !! wanna knw a secret ?? sumpahh gla ska tgk dia from jauh . fuh ! sumpah cair !! haha . and AND effy dh cpl ngn ikram !! hampeh tol ! haha . dulu time kterang assume dorang ade scndal , dorang dehy hbes2 !! nw plak dh cpl . haha . keling glaa !! well , i'm planning to go fr a jog tmr morning bt cm tk cnfdnt bley bgn pg !! haha . nk pegi around 6 like tht . agk2 bley ?? hopefully !! dh FAT glaa okay !! haha . dhla byk mkn chocs !! huh !! mmg naek la pipi bulat sat g !! huhu . tkmau tkmau ! mmm .. nnt dh bola baling nnt kurus la KOT !! haha , HAH !! dh jmpa bdak2 form 1 and 2 yg nk and most importantlyy BOLEHH mane handball . YES !! finally !! haha , serious gla stress time nk tryout bdak form 3 dt day . spe dh bdak tu ?? mmm .. amira , liyana and syaza if i'm nt mistaken . huh .. mmg kaw2 lembik !! and tktw maen! bkn nk bruk2kn nme dorang laa . if dorang set their mind , dorang bley maen .. BUT , i dh jmpa ths form 1 girl , guess wht's her name ?? SURAYA HANI ! haha . gla same !! and our personality pn same gk ! huhu . andd .. dia ade gang dia la yg bley maen handball . and GUESS WHT ?? dia bley lg tny if nk mskkn bdk gdik 'ina' tu in handball ?? alaa , adek j !! huhu . no wayy la kan !! never ever ever !! tapii .. if terdesak terpakse laa . mmm .. serious nk hntr oh under 15 ths year , cz IF la kn kterang bach nxt year form 5 dh tkde , no bola baling lg dh la ? gla tkde life !! huhu . then nw cm nk cri pelapis . mmm .. ingt senang bola baling ?? stamina must kuat babe ! haha . baling bola dt a=day jauh2 pn daket tgn till nw !! tht day ws like thrsday and now its saturday ! hah !! pnya la lme muscle nk elok balek .. haaaaahh !!! dhla no crdt !! i've repeated it twice rght ?? haha . because ir's true !! stress glaa !! aimeen plak tkde msg ! heiyaa .. gla risau dia ni hidup ke tak . huhu . and and gla lapar char kuey tiow !! haha . serious !! mmm .. bored bored bored !! byee~

mmm . i'm fghtng with my sister . it has been a while since we've talked .
i kinda miss her though . well , she's kind of my evrythng . i told her ERYTHNG tht has happened in my life . i always do . nw i'm verry stressed up abt evrythng . dnt knw why . aaaahhh !! tension gla !! but the fght ws nt all because of me . she said i ws being rude . i knw i am . bt tht ws just because she ws pushing me too hard . i hate it when ppl push fr doing stuffs tht i dont like . it ws all because of a really really really stpd stuff actually . bt as always , ego . hmm .. typical kakak and hani lah kn . nw due2 pn tknk mngalah . haihs . nk bwt pe ? i wsn't the blame . so it ws nt all fr me to apologize . i did tried to 'salam' her . you knw common melayu-ness . salam smerang before pegi skool . then she made faces . you knw the face tht says ' ahh , aku bagus . ' . ishk . tht made my day ! mmm .. then my brother is verrrryy close to her . so he's like with her 24/7 la kn . great !! nw all my siblings is like anti-hani ! hoh ! mama pn mcm short circuit nowadays . me too !! hah . tht's why my frnds's like 'sue skang slalu emo oh ! ' and i'll be like ' hmm . yeke ?? ' . nk ckp pe lg ?? ahhh .. tahla . nk ckp corry pn no use cz dia cm happy happy shit dia . well , she cn get lost lah wth her 'konon' happy pnye attitude . fck ! go to hell la wey . eventhough i love you bt sometimes i've had enough !!

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hah !! aimeen , knal ??
haha . bajet jee . :pp
sayang dia taw actually !
but but , dia syg tk ?? you'll never knw .. haha .
gila ?? do you knw how mny times have we cpld ?? its like 4 times !! fou , FOUR , F-O-U-R !!
haha . amazingly weird ! bt honestlyy speaking , i've nver loved anyone , and by anyone , i mean ANYONE !!
haha . ohh , smbg ayat , i've nver loved anyone jst like i love him . hard to belive ?? i knww . haha .
he drives me crazyy lahh !! why why why ?? ohh i wonder whyy . haha . EVENTHOUGH he has cpld wth ths psycho freak !! haha . okay okay .. 'nice' grl .. i still love him !
okayla okayla , i admit . maybe i too have cpld wth other guy ! wnt me to be precise ?? haha , fine fine , amar lah !
cheh gla poyo !! haha . mmm .. bt STILL !! i cpl ngn amar pn for just ONE day !!
jpjp , wait wait , tkmo ungkit ungkit laaarhhh !! kn ??
no use .. mmm ..the point here is tht i syg dia . tu jee .
haha . wait !! is tht wrng actually ??
seems like when i got back wth him , someone mayybeee .... haihs .
tahla . it seems like everytime when i start to trust him back somethng happens .
damn it !! huhu .
stress stress !! mmm ..
see ?? tht's why i gave the song hate tht i love you to hijm .
haha . serious ohh !! evrytime i hear tht song , mucus will be prodused and the 'watery eyes' will eventually happens !
oh oh oh , seriously hate tht song !
haha . and and no one !
hah !! THAT song , a LOT of mucus will be produced !!
haha . then i'll start to be all mushy mushy about him . huhu .
wrong wrong WRONG !!
cz technically , i cant love him THAT much !
nonono , dangerous ahh .
huhu . bt serious , ILOVEHIM .
dnt knw why . and do you wnt to knw wht's my hopeS ??
i'll gve you a list ! a whole lot of it ! huhu .

1 ) to be loved by him . *duhh , spe tknk ??
2 ) appreciated by him
3 ) have a wonderful time wth him
4 ) to be with him till the end of time . huh !
5 ) to love him with all my heart again !! *nt tht i dnt nw . ^.^'
6 ) nt to be arguing with him every time i start to open my mouth jst to talk to him ! huuh !
7 ) patience my child !
8 ) to be loyal and vice versa !
9 ) to get to know him even better !!

hah !! dh tktw laa . haha .

ALL OF THAT plus , minus , conclusion , to have a perfect relationship with him forever . :)
cn cn bie ??
and fr al the couples out thre , especially anis nabilla my dear , sbar la kayy .
chill and a LOT of patience !! haha . tolak ansur ..
well , i'm nt quite a good gf myself . BUT , i'll try my best to be nt just a good gf bt a GREAT gf .
i knw i cn do it . aannndd .. to excel in my studies yada yada yada ..
haha . yeahh . tht's it lah . huhu .
muahmuah !

hamhamham . bored bored !
samira lah suro bwt blog !
hahah . lgponn , mmg ska bwt blog but then cm mlas !
huhu . kt myspace pn , kn ade section fr blog .
*gla bodh i , huhu , mse ade ms kott ! ishk . stupid stupid !
hee . ANYWAYY , blog kt ms pon cm nk penoh dh ..
tkde memory lansung !! 125mp ape ??
huhu . dh start ngarut lah oke !
mmm .. bosan bosan lah todayy !!
dhla school cm ape jee !
bosan glaaa ..
and and !! boyf dhla tempang !! haha .
tkpe , tkpe . aslkn syg sudeyy ..
knkn ?? MOST IMPORTANT THING !!
huhu . today ade brthday party amer lah kott !!
tp tkley gi !! ish ish !
geram btol !! huhu .
kcian dia . dhla tkde crdt !!
SUMPAHH tkde life glaa !
huhu . amer pon !!
tukar num tk gtaw ohh !!
nk gtaw sara and samira jee .
wtv ah amer !! nk majuk !!
hmphh ! huhu .
hamhamham !!
sumpah bosann !!
nk kate pe pon . dh kate saturday !
haha . nk beli pinafore !!
ishk . bt mama dhla ade class today !
balek mlm , then tmr plak class pg smpi petang !
sumpah no life !
haha . geram glaa !!
aishh , probs probs !!
huhu . mnede probs ponn .
EXCEPT , gado ngn my so-lah-beloved-sister !!
heiyaa .... mlas la nk apologize .
mmm .. bwt tension jee .
well , no use talking bout tht obviouslyy !!
huhu . nk maen handball lah !!
wakil skolah la kott !! * ceyy , bangge bangge !
haha . keeper jee padahal !
ape laaa sgt ! huhu .
yer2 i tw i lopek ! so ??
got a problem with tht ??
no , so zippit !!
haha . bored bored bored !
granny and cuzzy plak tgk tv !
hindustan !! bley ??
ishk . haha . BORINGGG !! * yawnn ..
mmm .. dh dh !
tht's all lah fr MY FRST BLOG IN THS THNGYY ,
tata lahh !!

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