♥ i wish fr guys to STOP being manipulative
♥ i wish fr myself to be working harder on my studies
♥ i wish fr HIM ♥
♥ i wish fr , $$$ haha
AND , i wish fr what i've wished to come true (:

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Hello. My name is TengkuSuerayaHanie.
i HATE hypocrytes and manipulaters
Currently being forced to gain knowledge in SMKUSJ13
I LOVE TO CRAP , SERIOUSLY haha

see me , talk to me , walk away frm me BUT remember me fr a lifetime (:

damn , i hate myself . i am this close to accepting him . im sorry if i've let you down . maybe i havent . but i will . i love you but i knw this is fr the best . im so so sorry . hm life has been a bitch towards me lately . soo i have no time to go online and post a blog telling you ppl abt my life . no time ! hoh . friends are great ! love ? fuck it . urgh , confusing !! damn damn . nothing much to tell you ppl . its just that dnt be suprised when ihave a news to tell you guys . it'll be quite shocking to most of you guys . im sorry , so so so so sorry . i love you

fuck you la weh . cri psl . wtv la b****** . go fuck yourself happily . eesh . crisis is finally crashing me and bringing me down like HELL !! this is the time of my life when there'll be LOTS of problems that'll break me . JYEAH !! loving it to bits . duh wtv babi . mls nk update bnyk2 . lufkirlahsndri !

okay to start off my day . my cat died . :( hmm thn nw tkde spe lg nk bite our legs . yesterday ws the worse day ever . omg only god knws why . i dnt knw why bt everything seems so bad and it is making me to feel down cm gle babi okayh ! urgh pnat lah . im tired of this life shit . im sick of it . everything ! sometimes i even cnsder of dying to make things better , but tk taubat lg heh tkley mati lg hee . nw i dnt hve the mood fr blogging bt i am psting ths blog to gve the readers some knowings abt my life . hm , seriously im in my downs nw . shit .

okay !! fr the first time in my blogging history , i am posting a blog from teyra's hse ! haha . im sleeping over at her hse cz her parents went back to kedah bcz her nenek died , inalillahiwainalillahirajiun .. al-fatihah to beliau (: oh thn here we are just the two of us in ths hse , party like a rockstar lahh apa lagi !! hee , oh thn today i went to SMK USJ 4 to pick up my peka and results with 'the gang' haha . omg sme ckp i kurus !! woaaa mmg tk ahh ! ahah hugged samira , sara , shaz and effy cm org gilaaa !! aw gilamiss dorang oh !! sad sad hm , nmpk tht cpl !! aww smoga kekal ke ank cucu yerr , HAHA :DD thn cm jmpa gle rmai org okayh ! hee . after that we went to syed 8 fr breakfast then balek lepak-ed at teyra's hse . sumpah fun gila nk mampos !! haha BUT dorang bwk lari my phone ntah pegi mne cm th papee :p gilaa , mmg best gilaa lah . long story short , i had fun (: i actually like youu . haha jgn ckp banyak aa ! grr . oh thn nw tgh tnggu nk 4.15 cz nk gerak JADIBES ! haha , thn thn AC !! hee foos weyh foos ! foosball is quite a fun game lah okay ! hee . i admit it nw . tmr teyra's parents coming home . soo tonight lah party like a rockstar !! hahaha , ala but they're goin to hartamas cm ape je . kata ah g club !! adoi tk ajk !! ahhaa :p okay lah nw the weather's like uhhh it's going to rain cm gila je so better off lah , mwa xoxo <3

urgh ! wht a life !! hm , first i had THE table talk yesterday and it ws horrifying ! fr start it ws nt abt me at ALL ! me and nazeem sat thre cm org bdo then came up abt ME pulak . adoihh , thre came out abt him and him and bnde BDOH !! urgh , wtv . then after everything dh settle , we went back , PETANG pulak got stpd drama , cantek !! urgh , tk psl2 i kne lg !! eyh pls lah ! tkpe lg , kluar pulak abt i made a BIG mistake because he ws abt to confess last night bt i blew it ! sheesh , hear me , im nt putting any hopes at all okayh ! not one ! you were the one who ws sooooooooooo eager to match me up ! i dnt need yr help with my love life . but it doesnt mean tht i am nt appreciating yr help . i do , its just tht ill love who i wnt to love , hm . my current problem nw is i cnt trust ANYONE ! nt one ! i knw nobody cn help me . wtv lah , gle bnci je evryone . keep stressing me up yah , you guys are doing a GREAT job . congrats ! duhh , hm .

school ws BOH-RING ! but then came chemistry . haha we did an experiment and cm bdo gila doh ! haha , yan ling and her friend (okay sorry i tktw cmne nk spell your name , let alone nk sebut pn tkley ! hee ) yg conducted the experiment , then we used lithium and burned it la apa la , the ckgu dh ckp dnt put it near the bunsen burner bt they cm crack ke pe ntah bwk kuar the BURNING lithium kuar while the bunsen burner tgh ON lg kt sblah . haha , then an explosion happened . mmg best gle ah ! haha , i ws right thre pulak ! kne my back ! cm best !! haha , mmg lari depan ketakutan lah kn . all the students ws like , shocked gila babi ! haha sumpah funny !! highlight of my year ! hee , okay i slept like two times today . eesh , why la ?? kt 4 tk tdo pn tw ! fatigue fatigue ! haha wtv , went back home with hilman and his sister . okay i ws sooooooooooo tergamam dgn his sister pnya driving okay ! haha i think ill be getting a life insurance before nk naek ngn his sis , hee bt anyways , thanks sgt sgt sbb sent me home . thanks sgt ((: nw tgh nk bwt research abt the definiton of life fr my oral english tmr ,aih . okay then , ive finally gained my 'alone time' fr the time being under some reasons that i cnt mention here (: soo currently the time is 3:04pm . im here thinking wether sleeping is a good idea fr me nw since ive been sleeping in class lately . gosh , OR maybe jogging in the afternoon ?? gaahh malas gilaaaa BUT i knw ive gained a few kgs ! shit la i knw im fat ! hee , so wht ? dia syg jugaakk :pp

hah !! abt him ! omg ! stress lah lagiii !! hm , my friends kept pressuring me and i dnt knw wht to do . samira said do anything that'll make me happy . okay fine bt ntah la , haih . he sent me a looooooooooooooong text msg yg sgt convincing okayh ! sumpah agk cair lah ! haha , bt after 5 minutes dh freeze balek since mama bwt panas je suro bwt ni la tu la , potong mood btol ! haha , i love you okayh ! thats it ;D

okay like omg i am in a hell of a stressful time in the moment ! annndd i dnt quite knw hw to deal with all of this rght nw . okay TO BE HONEST , i like and LOVE ths guy okay . i knw most of y'all knw who ths guy is bt fr the rest , lets just keep wondering shall we ? haha okay sambung , i love him lah , bt not love love LOVE him like madlyyyyy , no . i syg him and i care fr him . BUT somehow i dnt knw why does everyone keep telling me not to get caught up with him and when i ask them why they just kept quite . DAMN ! i used to keep thinking this way before i met him : JUST KEEP SCANDAL-ING WITH ANYONE BUT IF I SOMEHOW FIND SOMEONE THT I WNT TO AND I DO LOVE , I WLD WNT TO TAKE CARE OF HIM AND BE FAITHFUL TO HIM . erk agk jiwang bt yeah tht ws wht i thought i wld do . bt nw ? i am confused like hell ! haha , pretty pathetic bt uh huh . i am confused ! okkay , one of my bestfrnds said tht he knws how to treat a girl right and he shows his love in a peculiar way , haha okaayy babe ! i got you :p i knw , hm . well , lets just see wht'll happen tmr and the next day and the next day and the next day . haha , STRESS !!

tmr i'll be having my FIRST table talk ever !! owh shit !! well technically i dnt knw wht is the kene mengena between me and the real problem thre , you see . tkde kne mengena langsung !! bt ntah la , dh dia pnggil kne jela pegi . adoii , ppl keep asking me abt hw is 13 , and wht's it like and which is better , 4 or 13 ? okay let me get it clear once and fr all , HONESTLY , 13 is much much much better than 4 , not to be rude or wht nt . bt seriously , 13 is bigger , CLEANER , friendlier , mre matured , and they knw hw to treat a person rght . seriously , i hve never regretted my decision of shiting school thre , BUT then again i cnt deny tht i do miss my old friends , well they're nt my old friends ! they're my current friends still ! gosh wht am i talking ! babesyy sorry ! i rinduuuu sgt kt korang ! hope bley hang sme2 oh ! :(( nk nangess , hmmm .

well kt 13 i've gained new friends , nk list them all ! hee , dorang bestt :))) hee dorang tuu : omg okay rmai tp serious dorang best ! :)))

my mid-term results ?? : SUCKS !! urgh i hate my brain ! why tkley upgrade pndai sikiiiiiit je lg ha ? omg org dh study tw tk ! appreciate the effort pls ! why tknk msukkn sme ilmu ha ? urgh dnt make me destroy you okay brain ! sheesh ,,

haish , back to scandally ? : I LOVE YOU . like hell , seriouslyy

okay i knw tht it has been a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time since ive posted a blog .. hee been busy maa . haha , with school and a new boy ? haha , yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :p poyo poyo , okkay my new school ? omg such a relieve ! the ppl thre are soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sweet and nice . very friendly and MATURED . pls , haha :D soo ive obtained a GREAT new life , thanks friends . and that doesn't mean tht i frgt my old frnds okay ! never ever ever ! i love them too much . hee . okay bt still there's SOMEONE who's been messing arnd wth my frnds okay . back off la bastard ! urgh bdoh . wateber ! gaaha , hm results ? OMG , tkya ckp ah hha , MEMALUKAN ! hm today is someone puny birthday HAHA so ? okay wateber again . hm going off to teyra's btw . bye lah , hee mwaaaa <3

wey la knp ? suka tk pic tu ? haha . cun kn ? jgn la maraaa , HAHA . bdo gila . proved tht you mmg slalu check page i . aww tht's sweet ! thanks hoh syg ! bullshit ! haha blah la wey . suda la . suka la i nk bwtpe . you asl ? ee poyo sumpah la kau org . ergh sumpah gila disgusted doh ngn korang SATU GANG . cm sampah ! aww jgn terasa eh .. haha , okayokay wtv . aih tmr summersplash !! heee . bestbest . jm jm la kwn ! hee . OH and you all nk tgk pic tu ?

nk besar lg ? hahahahaha

okay nw its 3.3o in the morning and i cant sleep . damn it . hm . and guess wht ? i miss him , fuck ! an ? i dnt knw la . i dnt thnk it cld wrk out . urh i hate hate hate my life . im experiencing a super bored holiday by staying at home ALONE whle everyone is out working . darn . i wnna go out plss . and hm i HATE ths guy yg very the selfish ! urgh thank god im shifting school soon , gosh cnt wait to go to my new school and start a new life . hm boredom is slowly taking over my life ! sheesh , i wanna meet my frnds ! ESPECIALLY teyra ! urgh in the urgency need of her ! gosh , nw ive noticed tht im slowly drifting away frm my old frnds , hm . bt i knw tht im nt doing anythng abt it . well they too are not doing anything abt it . so watever la . haish . shit ! i cn feel the emptiness ! gurhh . well take it away frm me pls ! i hate it ! omg im sad ! okay honestly ? im feeling down and i dnt knw why . shit . wtv lah , bye