heart.
Hello. My name is
TengkuSuerayaHanie.
i HATE hypocrytes and manipulaters
Currently being forced to gain knowledge in SMKUSJ13
I LOVE TO CRAP , SERIOUSLY haha
see me , talk to me , walk away frm me BUT remember me fr a lifetime (:
Saturday, May 31, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/31/2008
okay i just got back from genting . i am exhausted like hell ! haha , BUT it ws all worth it okayh ! hee because ? aww tht cute guy ! hee me likey ! haha okayokay . first to start my WONDERFUL week off , hee , i sleptover at teyra's hse fr three days :)) we had fun ! i met amirul , syamil , meerul and acap and allia and zikry ! haha they were all wnderful and friendly ppl . PLUS annoying ! haha abaanngg , knp abang ? haha . funny funny . oh thn teyra sleptover at MY place bcz of the genting trip . okay thn saturday arrived we went to genting . planned to find some chakus ahaha . found one bt we're like FOUR ppl . nk share mg tk ah ! last2 dpt kt ME ! hee . sukaaa , he's cute ! ngee , okayokay stop angau-ing ! haha thn time lpak ngn frnds kt darus kne plk kacau ngn ths mamat , haha cute bt involved ngn stpd stuffs la . slack je . haha wtv thn . bwt scandal bley ah , haha . aihh . took loaaddss of pics dkat genting . hah mmg smpai nk meletup lah camera ! ahaha i dnt thnk i cn post the pics up cz banyak sgt !! gahaa . tgk kt ms shj lah yer ? (: well , nw tgh texting ngn the guy yg amat amat COMEL lah hee . sukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :DD okayokay lah byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee mwa ,
Tuesday, May 27, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/27/2008
sounds weird but yeah , im wearing glasses .. and i look tremendously fugly ! haaaaaaaa bencii ! but i am only going to wear it when needed , hha needless to say i am not a geek at heart . be thankful for that yah , HAHA . well , went to mydin and SERIOUS beli barang dgn BORONGNYA haha . sangat RAKUS eh syg ? ;p well , serious cm GUDANG ahah . post up pics jela malas nk yap banyak banyakk ,
ni masuk kilang terus ! HAHA
kn ? haha
tht ws not all ! ahaha trust me , cm nk bkak kedai runcit je
okayokay thn me cam-whoring out of boredom ;D
okay so i knw i look ugly , SO ? hee . okaylah ! byebye , ;D
Monday, May 26, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/26/2008
OWH SHIT !! GOD NOOOO ...
i cant face this type of things no more ,, it hurts ! hm , moreover WE , meaning tht guy and i agreed tht having a cpl is just a waste of time but thn again , why is he being so nice to me ? omg , he seems like a nice dude but i dont knw !! urghh , i HATE this kind of feeling ! i really do ! he calls me every now and then and EVRY SINGLE TIME I KEEP FALLING IN "okay like je dlu eh , love blm" WITH HIM , OMG ,, okayokay i admit , I LOKE HIM . shit noooo !! uhh , i mean he's the kind of guy whre he keeps his cool je and ALSO , he loves to joke , which attracts me ! ohhhhh noooooooooooooooooooooooo .... i dnt wnt ths to happen plsss ,, because you knw why ?? i once LIKED ths guy bt he's the scandalous type of guy haha , soo cannot go lah ! aiyo but i dnt knw why somehow i KNOW tht this current guy is the type of a loyal one . OMG tk sukaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa .. tk larat nk gve commitment lg dhlaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa SERIOUS . everytime if im loyal to tht person then i'll get SHIT in return , and im SICK of it already ! hmm .. wel'll see what happens to this guy then , wish me luck guyss ;D
*BTW , PLS DO GUESS WHO'S THIS DUDE THT IM TALKING AND LIKING ABT ;)
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HandWritten on; 5/26/2008
a vacation meaning from my family ! omg they are soo getting on my nerves ! ESPECIALLY my sister , OH i mean shanieda . i dnt have a sister ! urgh FCK YOU LAH WOMAN . okayokay yesterday ws quite funny . we ALL watched "bring it on : all or nothing" . haha by saying "ALL" wa including mama and abang ! haha . thn in tht movie they used the IM language , fr example "WTF" , "IDTS" , "IMYA" and all sorts , HAHA . then after the movie we went to kopitiam fr supper and we talked using the IM language , okay first it ws between us siblings la kn , mama dgar and gelak je . we used like "HL"-HUJAN LA , "GB"-GI BAYAR , "TM"-TAK MAUUU . haha . then mama nk join mama ckp , "UL LA " -UYIE LA LA ? hha it ws supposed to be UYIE LA , bt ntah mama saket kot , HAHA kuang ajaaa woa . em em then balek rmah , all those working ppl went to sleep bt all us BURUNG HANTU satyed active HAHA , i bought supersavers and called teyra syg ,, hha planned abt our sleepover . iloveyoulahminah ! thn called nazwan bt dia dkat darus so mls nk kacau .. haha after tht to fnish off the minutes i called aris la kn , he's the only person yg AKAN lyn my calls bila2 je hha , only if i yg call dia lah , he jarang je call *EMOEMO , hha . okay thn slept at 5 , woke up at 2 something trus switched mode jd BIBIK MODE , haha i washed the dishes and lipated the kainS la , aihh . so nw im hungryy haha waiting fr abg to bring back nasi goreng cina and also fr HIM to reply my txt msg , aihh , bencii scandal !! :(( aihh , ntah . hha *OKAYOKAY DIA DH REPLY ;D , hm NO COMMITMENT PLSS , haha well . ha maybe wednesdayy ni nk kuar with amirul !! ;D you janji nk blanja i movie kan ? hha sayang you woaaa :p jkjk tp tp nk sleepover rmah teyra , carlos yeh ? haha toodles thn mwaaaaaaaaaaa <33>
Wednesday, May 21, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/21/2008
this is a few text messages that a liar has sent to me a few weeks back , DARE TO BELIEVE ?
i close my eyes at night wondering whre wld i be without you in my life , everything i did was just a bore , everywhre i went seems i've been thre before , but you brightened up for me all of my days , with love so sweet , in so many ways i just want to stop , and thank you baby , how sweet it is 2 b loved by you =)
Sent : 5-May-2008
02:21:20
such as ? alalala . . yang , jgn la cmni . sorry baby . . anything you want me to do , i do . . anything you want me to dgr , i dgr . . sayang , i love you mre than myself . . .
Sent : 4-May-2008
23:20:45
owh its on 4 may and at 0515
Sent : 4-May-2008
05:16:44
i truely , madly and deeply in love with you . . .
Sent : 4-May-2008
01:26:56
omg okay to be honest , YES I DID FELL FR IT . hw stpd ws i ? aihh , okay he said tht to me bt in LESS THAN A WEEK , he told my frnd tht his feelings fr me is like "chipsmore" , meaning kjap ada kjap tkde . like WTF la kn , haha stpd la wey . you knw wht ? actually aftr cpl ngn you pon i trus fkir nk break dh cz you knw why ? dh NO SPARK , uhh bt i ws still clinging on to you thinking tht IF i tell you tht , i'll lose you and regret abt it . bt i heard tht when you were still in a relationship wih me you held her hand , haa dnt ever thnk tht i will nver fnd out abt it okay . im nt stpd and i hve frnds in your class okay . GOOD FRIENDS . and suprisingly i ws nt suprised to hear tht and i dnt feel a thing . and when you told me you're going to hyper wth your FRNDS , yea i believed you and maybe tht ws true bt going to pharmacy with HER ? haa you cnt lie to me lah pls . anndd nw you hve a new gf and wnt to show her off to me ? DEY , tk HERAN pn lah !! i knw she's the "rebound girl" , so i dnt mind and i dnt care , haha . i'll leave 4 anywaayyy . so be happy with her and you'll never see my face again :)) happy ? yeaa i knw , me too . omg pls lah jgn gelabah sgt okay ? menyampah la tgk hha . pls , and do you knw hw my feeling is like nw ? omg HAPPY and EXCITED , i mean i cnt wait to meet new ppl and FRESH FACES . toodles :D
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HandWritten on; 5/21/2008
ohh my life is kinda being a BIT better nw (: yay ! oh haaaaaaaaa EXCEPT the fact tht i knw im SOOOO going to fail addmaths , SORRY Pn.Ananthi !! :DD i love you bt i jst dnt quite get addmaths haha .okayokay . soo yesterday i went to ppd to do YOU-KNW-WHT hee , the results coming out tmr , OMG cnt wait ! i so so so hope tht it'll be approved by whoever lahh :)) okayokay , ALSO , tmr im having pjk , sivik and maths2 paperS . hee EASY PEASY , wahhwahhhhh :0 hah terer sangat lahh ! oh oh cnt wait to get ths shit over . thn cuti and start a new life (: its finall guys , nobody's goin to stop me frm having MY new life . haihh okayokay . went to samira's place aftr ppd's .and mmg kegilaan kami terserlahh haha . we took loadsss of pictures ! omg haha thn tdo bkn nk blaja !! :DD
OKAY SUMPAH TGN SAMIRA !! :d
AGAMA ISLAM yeaaaaaaaaaaa :D
haha syg samiraaaaaaaaaaaa , oh thn .. balek kt dlm car cam-whore ngn MAMA plk , :p
haha , pretty interesting day yah ? bestbest , :D well nw im quite sad to leave them all but this is fr me and me onlyy . god pls help me get through this with much patience and happiness , thank youu (:
bless you all , hha :D
Sunday, May 18, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/18/2008
NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE POWER OF A GOOD FRIEND ,
yeaaaaaaa its TRUE ! haha , okayokay stop the yappin and start talking , welll ... today went to sunwayy bcz of shasha's phne haha . stpd phne ! MENYUSAHKAN ! uhh thn bought those fat DONUTS ! omg they do make me FAT haha . well .. came home and my auntie's already here thn like hug hug cm org gilaa haha dorang bestttttttttttttttt !!!!!! we played UNO and ate . i'll put up the pics later bt bt ze DONUTS ? ohhh you guys cn see the process of me getting myself FATTER , HA HA .
i mean , look at the donut ! and we still have like 4 of them ! shit , haha. well tmr ? oh shit , kne studyy .. waaaaaaaa ! when will this tortureous life be over ? god oh god pls take them awayyyy :D haha oh well , its fr the sake of ME ME and ME ! im nt going to get married pon kn ? haha sooo just thnk tht the moneyS tht im going to obtain frm wrking hard is just fr me and my adopted child named SHAFIQ DANIAL (: my babyyy . see tht's my plan . not going to get married bt getting an adopted child and raise him by my own and making sure tht he'll take GOOD care of his girlfriends and his future wife . haha . so wht ? got a problem with my imagined life ? haha FACE ME thn . i'll be happy enough to consult you through my planned life (: well better than having A boyf bt being treated like SHIT . rght ? i mean , its better to lead a simple life and EXPECT LESS FROM EVERYONE . rigghhtt ?? haha i dnt mess up anyone's life and they dont mess my life up . simple as tht , i hve my family and my oh so lovely frnds . SO ? haha . PLAY THEM BOYS , shall we ? :D
Saturday, May 17, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/17/2008
serious !! they suck like hell !! guys guys guys , blablablaaaa hha . they lie , they cheat , they con . they'd do ANYTHING and EVRYTHING for the leisure of their own . and im SICK of it . okay nw im talking to the guyss , NW NW HEAR ME , if YOU guys think tht you cn get evrything tht you wnt , you are SO WRONG ! hear this , girls aint tht stupid to fall fr all your lies , pls ! dnt treat us like we're nothing okay . yea you cn play us around bt THINK , we cn also play you . bt thn again , if we play you , you'll call us BITCHES , WHORE or even SLUTS . thn maybe you too deserve the name BASTARDS , JERKS and ASSHOLES . am i rght ? dnt thnk tht girls are nt capable of doing those thngs tht you always do .
you cnt blame me fr thnking abt you in tht kind of a perception because EVERY guy tht i knw screwd up . and i mean , CHEAT and LIE and ABUSE and all those sorts . thn you cn figure out why do i thought of them tht way ! all my life i have NEVER met a guy whch ws decent enough to make my life happier than it already is . all my frnds , frm wht i've seen , have never been involved in an HONEST and HAPPY relationship . tht made me thnk , why shld i ever get myself involve in this kind of crap ? bullshits ? sometimes i even cnsidered of nt getting married because it'll just screw me up . so basically " LELAKI HANYA MENYUSAHKN DAN HANYA MENYAKITKAN HATI PEREMPUAN " and its trueee . eee , i personally HATE guys ! (and tht doesnt mean tht im nt straight OKAY ) its just tht , why cnt i get a good guy tht'll make my life perfect ? aihh , i pledge tht i wont be involve in a relationship 'till im 23 UNLESS if he is a really nice and truly a devine asshole thn i'll cnsider :p . and hold on to tht cz im SERIOUS . enjoy (:
Friday, May 16, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/16/2008
haha wey sumpah funny !! haha okayokay yesterday WE went to the counselling room cm SHIALL je ahaha , ada perang dunia ke2 , drama melayuu , drama thailand , drama myanmar sume ada ! haha i dh vogue vogue g skola tbe2 balek2 nanges ni ape de hal ? haha okayokay this is hw i looked yesterday aftr the counselling session ,,
okayyy , then ada lg afternoon session pnya nangesss and this is hw i looked , omg this one mmg horrible gila ah ahha
haha horror kn ?? okaayy , thn ptg tuu pegi tgk neo kakak omg sumpahh dia gila jakun ! ahah weyh keta JER ! lek ahh ahaha , thn snapped A pic (haha yeaa rght ) in her NEW neo , glbh bontot la kakak ! ahah
haa yesyes , tu jee yg terjadi ! ahah today ? uhh malaass nk cte la dey ! haah :p
Tuesday, May 13, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/13/2008
hello fellow frnds ! hee , well ! i did est's and agama's paper today fr the MID-TERM EXAM , shit . hha . est ws okayy because it ws the info-transferring thingyy AND a 200lengthofwords ESSAY . omg ! i hated the fact that starting from form 4 TO form 5 , all ESSAY ! no OBJECTIVE BULAT2 . mygod ! why torture us huh hishammudin ??? huhu , okayokay agama ? all of US noisemakers sat in a group and copied like hell ! ahha , but towards the end of the paper EN.NIK HAMZAH came in and all of the copying stopped , SHIT . and guess wht ? our lovely and beloved EN.NIK HAMZAH said ' kamu dh gemuk , ' WEYH !! agk2 ahh !! hahaha , shit shit shit ! and and as alwaayyysss ,, ady ws like " HAHA tu laaaaaaaaaaaaa roti boom dua bjik lg ! " aahah siod ! uhh biar lah !
so so so , tmr i'll be having chemistry2 and est2 . OMGGGGG !!!! well , gtg and studyyy yah ! ahaha :p yeaaa rightt .. toodles ! :D
Friday, May 09, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/09/2008
"i cant imagine life without your love , "
uhh , i cn ! see , i dnt think tht we are living in a world tht is FULL with sincere and unconditional LOVE , duhh . its like BULLSHIT LOVE , thts wht we call it nowadays . hha never ever get yourself caught in ths bloody thngs because its never worth it . trust me i knw . well it may seem wonderful and delighting and HAPPY in the beginning bt at the end , it'll eat you up inside fr good ! huh , wtv boyS ! haa , they are so nt wrth it . well , so far , that is wht i think abt guys aa haha well , we'll just see who gets the BEST relationship first okay boy ? I DARE YOU ! hha :D
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HandWritten on; 5/09/2008
my life gila cool dh nw :D hha , freedom ! ahahah ,, well thats the topic frm my english pnya paper , hee and today pnya drama , i broke up with my boyf daaa , cool tk ?? :p hha , well plan nk single .. haha ya rght ! cheychey ,,, :D dhdh ,! tk lrat dh hha . well nw just focus on my studies , frnds and famiyyy knkn ??? hee baru la teratur sket hdup ! hha ,, tkyh nk fkir2 bout others pnya feelings . haha . well ,,, today ada exam physics and english1 , yess i knw english1 sounds easy bt i hve to write an essay abt SMOKING and a 350++ words fr the second one and its abt FREEDOM ;) hha , then the second paper ws physics1 , aaahhh !! i knw tht i'll fail physics ! haha , DUH . hha physics sucks la weyh , hhaa kn ?? spe agree ?? oh oh and dkat skola td ada drama melayu minggu ini ! haha , ada ke ths guy pkul perempuan ??? omg ... nononooo ... no good la sayaaanggg hha , ape la ! umm . td dinner kt MAKBUL wth mama .. then bdak2 tuition kt ctu hbes tuition kn .. then mmg cuci mata hbes2 ahh haha ! woohh hothot amat dehh ! aaa .. then met danny and raziman , dorang nmpk thn bwt bdo , mmg kne WOY la kn .. hha , stpd buffallo .. uhhh bsan laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa byebye thn !! :D
Tuesday, May 06, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/06/2008
dreams doesnt always cme true , hoh . hmmmm im cnfused like hell weyh ! ahhh bullshit lahhh , adoii . uhh hve fun jela dlu , dnt thnk tht i cn gve too much cmmtment currentlyy , hohoh . frnds frnds frnds , iloveyouguyslikeHELLlh !! hha , hm td time bio ada bwt experiment DOH . bestbest , hha . like wth i cn see the onion pnyaa nucleus ! WOWWWW ..... hahahahah , well smpai d sini shj deyh ? nytenyteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D
Monday, May 05, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/05/2008
happy to be loved by them ppl who loves me ,
ALHAMDULILLAHHHHHHHHHHH ..........
LOVE ppl who loves youuuuuu ((:
Saturday, May 03, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/03/2008
'
Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
Girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay 'cause
You are my survival
Now hear me say
I can't imagine life
Without your love
Even forever don't seem
Like long enough
'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Maybe I'm a drifter
Maybe not
'Cause I have known the safety
Of floating freely
In your arms
I don't need another lifeline
It's not for me
'Cause only you can save me
Oh can't you see
I can't imagine life
Without your love
And even forever don't seem
Like long enough
'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
'Cause you're the air
That I breathe
'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
And baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning your love
Baby I can't help it
Keep me drowning
In your love
I keep drowning
In your love
Baby I can't help it
Can't help it no, no
'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
i seriouslyy love love love this song ! i mean im repeating it over and over and over again lh ! hha , enjoy (:
backstreet boys-drowning
Friday, May 02, 2008!
HandWritten on; 5/02/2008
hm , hard to frget , pls understand me (: today ws a boring dayy hha . went out with my siblings , we had fun suprisingly haa . oh we went everywhere ! ahha well nt exactly everywhre ! hha hah ! my sis just bought me a pinafore ! hha beware schoolmates ! i'll be wearing it on mnday so dnt be shocked ! hha , well im sort of a stressed up plus happy person . again , emotionally unstable ! hha em . i still love him though , ever thought tht we cld evr be happy again ? hm . we'll see . enjoy
