♥ i wish fr guys to STOP being manipulative
♥ i wish fr myself to be working harder on my studies
♥ i wish fr HIM ♥
♥ i wish fr , $$$ haha
AND , i wish fr what i've wished to come true (:

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Hello. My name is TengkuSuerayaHanie.
i HATE hypocrytes and manipulaters
Currently being forced to gain knowledge in SMKUSJ13
I LOVE TO CRAP , SERIOUSLY haha

see me , talk to me , walk away frm me BUT remember me fr a lifetime (:

seems like you've moved on . hm . yea yea wtv la you . gla hurt tw . hm . pnat la pkir , you sng2 happy2 over thre while im fucking miserable here . wtv . i cn move on and maybe i will . shit . dulu i ws over you ! bt you came back !! why ? just to hurt me again ? hmm . im stupid , i mean i ws . i gla elok2 jaga nw , i tknk talk or flirt with any guys just to get you and only you on mind , bt wht fr ? you dh elok2 cmmnt with GIRLS je kn ? and maybe you pn dh text ngn girls , i tk reply guys pnya msg pn . okay so wtv la kn ? like you care pn . hm . pape la you . nk move on btol2 ? tk regret dh kn ? dh FINAL decision kn ? up to you . and dnt blame me nnt if i dh msg ngn guy laen , or wtv . i tnggu you , bt in tht time , you bestbest text , cmmnt with girl laen kn ? okay la you . bwt pe you nk , nk new life right ? you've got it . happy kn ? THEN STOP SHOWING YOUR FACE TO ME ! pls ! you nk move on then LET ME MOVE ON TOO PLS ! sheesh ! ni stock lalu my class pndg bwh , hug tgn ayed and wtv . why the hell are you doing tht fr ? fr fun ? sje nk bwt i lg miserable ? HUH ?! suka tgk i cmtu kn ?! eesh , wtv la you . IF YOU NK TNJK KONON YOU SYG I LG , TK PAYAH IF YOU NK TPU2 . well , tht's wht my frnds assumed la . okay cmni la , you nk move on and have a new life wthout me kn ? then let me have a new life too pls . avoid me if you cn . i'll let you have a new life tht you've always wnted . i'll avoid you . if tht wht makes you happy . i love you and i wnt to see you happy . well , preferably happy with me bt i thnk i cnt afford to make you happy . i mean i cnt make you happy . im sorry . if tkde i lg better kn ? okayy , i hope you dpt girl yg lg better than me . yg boley give you whatever you wnt and make you happy . honestly speaking , i still care fr you and i miss you . bt wtv . hm . i knw its no use fr me to be thinking tht way . bt wht the heck , its the truth . you nk listen kt your frnds kn ? they all suro you move on . yea i knw dorang yg nk cpl sebenarnya , bkan you . they're the one who's dealing with this relationship nw , nt you . dorang yg ade feeling syg tu , bkan you . yea yea . i thougth of it tht way too . hm . im nt going to make a statement tht i cnt live without you and im nt going to say tht i cn . hm . i pn tktw la . i knw you tk pnah nk bkak my blogspot , so i tules jela . all this while you fkir i tpu you kn ? nw i post blog behind you , if tu pn you nk ckp i tpu you , i tktw la . i tktw pe you nk . you've made it clear by SAYING tht you dnt wnt me in your life and you wnt a new life bt you're nt showing all tht . im tired of doing things to give the right impression of me to you while you dnt even care , i wnt you to bt sadly you dont . dhla you . nw you're playing a game tht im tired of playing . honestly ? samira and i cnt stop talking bout you . bt it ws all by coincidence . get it ? everything pn reminds me of you . and seriously , EVERYTHING . i ws intending to stop talking bout you the other day bt you lalu my class , i diam lg . then effy ckp kt i bout you . then diam lg , samira plak . haihh . i tktw how to frget bout you . its damn fucking bloody hard . heesh . i knw its damn easy fr you . dhlaaa ... pape pn , i still love you . i'll never hate you . and nw , pape yg you bwt pn hurts me . i hate tht , just like you've said . i hate tht i love you . i'll always love you and i'll wait . enough said .

[Verse 1]
It's not about who's right or who's wrong
It's not about who's weaker or who's strong
It's not about who's innocent or who's fault
It aint really bout that kinda thing at all
It's not about who does it or done it or did it to who
Don't matter if the both of you lose
It's really not bout nothing excpet for me and you girl

[Chorus]
It's about drama and love and 'lationships
and when the going gets tough you deal with it
and you dont ever you never walk away from it
you hold on you be strong
It's about drama and trust and making it
if your somebody messed up you dig it in
dont let nobody come between you you just stay with it
you hold on and be strong
and hold on, yes you do

[Verse 2]
It's not about the stupid things that we say
Were always saying stupid things anyway
It's not about the secrecy of the lines
Girl everybodys gots a secret to hide
It's not about who was it who was she who's creeping on who
Won't matter if the both of us lose
It's really not bout nothing, cept for me and you

[Chorus]

Aint bout your pride
Aint bout yourself
It's bout the two of you and noone else
Aint bout the her
Aint bout the lies
Aint bout the crazy things thats running through your mind
It's bout the love thats supposed to last and never dies

you got it bad :(

starting off with , today . 280308 . ckup 1 year i knal aimeen . okay okay STOP . he wnts it this way . cnt say anything . :( well , today ? aihh . frustrating like hell ! naseb ada my frnds ada . at least ada la org if nk halang i frm drinking ajax fabuloso kn siti kn ? huhu . aihh . THIS IS SOO NT HEALTHY . bt i jst cnt help it . hm , today ada test bio doh ! haha . funny doh samira . aihh , alaahh . the rest , suma kt blog samira ada , i mean , wht happened at school la . ngee . hmm . see ? emotionally unstable ! dh gila ! haha . nw dh ade dua cats doh kt my hse . satu ABU :( shit . hm . satu lg mimi . betina ! gahaa . nw ABU tgh ddk dlm my kain . tkley bla doh ! haha , ngek doh . super gatal ! :p kucing je kottt . haha . mm . tdi ws the super seksa-est practice ever !! hm . it hurts lg . shit . he ws hmm . shit . tknk ah ckp . gla sdey je . hm . dia super comel . :| hm , nw gla bsan . mtv psg lgu gla bsan ! cm nk sman je mtv , huhu .channel v pn !! ee . cm nk bg pelempang . haha . today NO MOOD SGT . hm . bye then :)

OMG . it hurts like a LOT . i tktw nk bwt pe dh . my hand dh sejuk gila . i feel like dying . he wnts to move on ! shit . damn it . okay nw mama dh naek ats . so im crying . omg omg . shit . waa ! he wnts to move on !! tk cya doh ! mamaaaa !!! sdey nyaaaaaa .. saket gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ............. he wnts to frget abt me ! shit !!!!!!!!!!!!! i tktw nk ckp ngn spe dhh .. omg .. he wnts to leave me gla2 dhh !!!! tkley accpt gilaa ! omg ... i gila syg dia weyh ! umm , dia tkley faham doh .. just cancelled my ms accnt . serious cnt accept . hm . the one guy yg i gila syg like hell just bwt decision tknk ade pape langsung dh ! omg !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dh tmau cpl dhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aris ke tk aris , tmau !! shit la . stpd stuff doh . hm . its nt okaaay fr me if he nk move on bt i tkley paksa if dia dh hate me , dh tk syg and dh tk ska . well , bt just fr me , i tknk move on ! i WANT to think abt him . as a metter of fact , i NEED to think abt him . i still love him . shit . hm . bru je nmpk dia ptg tdi . nmpk dia , cry , then trus balek . hmm . if he nk listen kt frnds dia , then i tkley nk ckp pape . aihh . serious shit it does hurt . seksaaa gila doh ! omg . tk tkley bla . it hurts ! tk sangka i love him this MUCH . shit . i hate it dong ! benci gilaaa . omg .. hm , tktw nk ckp pe dh . maybe pn nk delete accnt facebook , frndster and blog . and if dpt asrama , i'll go . tktw la nk bwt pe dh . serious tkley pkir langsung . shit .im emotionally unstable . hm . nk bwt evrything yg bley fr jauh dr aimeen . thts wht makes him happy kn . i love him like seriously . hmm . thla . nk mati serious . nk mati !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ish . if lg one week tkde this blog meaning dh cancel blog la tu . bye korang lah . im too sad . im sorry aimeen . im really really really sorry . i tktw nk bwtpe dh nw . ive ruined it . hm . im sorry and i really do love you :'(

just got back from kelantan and im fuckin tired . got through a crisis . aihh . cut long story short ,

i just broke up with my EX boyf and im nt that sad . he left me actually fr a LAME exscuse and at last , its all my fault . bt dude , i didnt regret saying all that because its true . cnt accept it ? NASEB AH . haha . wey , i love you la bt i knw i cn manage myself without you . you wnt to move on ? go ahead . wnt a new life ? silakan . guess im heading towards being single fr the rest of my life because i dh SERIK ngn guys yg suka LIE cm bdo . hm . ppl , dnt ask why , when and how . just get it in your head tht i am nw nt with him . and jpjp , aimeen , tell your freaking frnds dnt play with ppls feelings . i sumpah you all nnt sume rase pe yg i rse . hee . bt serious , i nk korang rse . hw does it feel to lose the person you love then knwng your past crush hs a feeling fr you when the person whom you love most lets you down . you cn play with my feelings bt i wnt you all to experience it . screw you guys ! you guys cn go to hell ! GUYS . haha . useless jerks . wtv ;D

aww , syg evryone :D sume pn gila caring towards me . hee . my life is going quite well nw , thats all i guess . haha . its like 2am nw ! like wht the heck tmr's schooling ! haha , mls nk tdo la . aimeen dh tdo dhh . ngee , bye then :))

im over it . im tired . i love you bt why the hell are you acting like a 3 yr old ?? i dnt knw wht the fck is your prob and SUPRISINGLY ,, im so fucking stressed up by this mthrfckng problem . i dnt knw when is all these going to end . im fucking tired . this is all bullshit tht im nt suppose to be fuckng handling nw . all those bullshits ?? fckd up reasons ! wtv .



*mind the language , im fucking pissed off !

i dnt knw whts happening . abt wht's going on ?? i hate it . i love him bt everythng seems so uncertain . i hate everything , even myself .

hyeee ~~ aaahhh . i am soo excited doh !! ngee ~~ kn anis kn ?? haha . for your information , tommorow is my 11th monthlyvrsrry !! ngee ~ bie , dh 11 mnths kte cpl kaann ?? althought there're bumps along the way bt we've made it jgak kann ?? weelll ,,, lg 1 mnth je nk 1 year kn baby ?? huhu . longest realtionship ive ever had la . sorry fr the kegedikness !! haha . im happy to be with youuu :)) aihh . love you la !! ngee ~ life ?? haha . im happy too !! everyone is happy in their on way . kakak ?? annoying !! haha . she's happy with her so-call-scandal !! haha . :p he's nice bt there're some prob la . BIG problem la actually . aih . abg ?? haha . he's okay ! weird , i knw . haha . i knw tmr he'll be pissed if he knws tht im going out . tnggu je laaa . mama ?? haha . she's FINE ! annoying as always . ahah .. and guess wht ?? she loves our new kitten sooo much ! haha . guess wht name did she gave the kitten ?? haha . ABU !! or is it BUBU ?? haha . weird mama ! :p oh yeah , anis ?? happy 3rd monthlyvrsry aite ?? ngee ~ i love you lah babe !! samira ?? dh dh la tu syg . jgn la like this kayy ... ngee ~ *sorry intermission , abg suro angkt kain then maen jp ngn abu hee . mood dh tkde dh nk post blog pnjg2 sheesh .* aihh . bored la nw . byee then !! :))))

bored nk mampos ! unlike my bestfrnd anis , she'll only post a blog if she has something to say . every post in her blog has a motive . bt mine ?? haha . none !! no motive at ALL !! aihh . i mean she'll always has something to say . evryday ! haha . me ?? hmmmmmmmmm :s . aihh . 1mnth and 2 days more to go till my frst anniversary :) i love him . like seriously . aihh . life ?? nt quite good . bt then .. okaayy laaa . huhu . dhla . mls nk post long blog . no mood :|

today alone d rumah plak . bosan glaa . well then , lets hope tht i cn go to ou tmr . OU ?! sam !!! gla gla jauh tu babe !! my money dhla super sikit ! tkla super sikit bt sikit ! heheh , rm2o . mne cukup ?!! transport syg ?? aihh . andd , maybe nk kuar g ou tmr .. then MY own plan nk kuar friday plak .. hee . guess why friday ?? 14th maaa ... bt tk sure lg laa . aimeen cm tk cnfrm bila dia bley kuar . bt DUH ! aimeen ?? tkley kuar ?? haha , bwt lawak !! ngee ~ jokin bie .. xD . haha . then dh ckp ngn mama "MA !! duet skola minggu nie KENE dpt gk !! TK KIRE !! " hee . nk jugak ! nk jugak !! ngee ~ *ehh , sat sat , nk g toilet :p* ..... *okay im back ! ngee ~" nk g tgk movie oh !! dh lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee sgt sgt tk tgk movie ! SERIOUS !! last tgk enchanted . hah !! guess how long is tht ?! hmmm .. im bored laa . bye lh ! ngee ~ muahmuah . or mwaaa . hee ~

fuck ! bosan , aihh . today cm emo2 day . babi btol ! mama tk pegi class today .. agk2 why ?? dh dh dh ! hmm . mamat sorang tu plak emo tk psl2 !! haha , sorry la i kerek ystrday . geram gla . well , naseb la . pdn ngn mka . sape suro bwt cmtu . HAH ! i dnt care anymore get it ?! nk emo wthout a reason ?? go ahead !! LIC ! your freakin phrase rght ? zzz , yours too rght ? aihh . biar la bie nk bwt pe . i thought ade audition today ? MENIPU GLA SMPI SKANG PN TK BGN LG !! gla ular !! ishk . pape la . nw im waiting fr mama to get ready nk kuar and beli goreng pisang (fried banana . haha .) and maybe will be browsing fr our cat's bed . mwahaha , cm bdo . katil kuceng !! gaa . well , no mood sgt nk blog abt anything today . sheesh . wtv la . bye :)

lalala .. poyo poyo poyo !! ngee ~ dhlaa . mls nk bwt statement pape . well , some ppl ARE just plain stupid . im rght , rght ?? haha . you're funny .. aihh .. im bored like hell do you knw ? scholl hols hs started bt i didnt do anything fun at all ! hah ! stpd . plan nk g tgk movie laaa . bt dnt knw when . :| . and guess wht ?? we've a cat !! haha . so CUTE !! finally .. but nw takot mati jee . ngeheh . name ?? did nt figure tht out YET !! huhu . let me tell you sumthin , relationships are stpd . haha . bt i myself doesnt knw why i am involved in one . i love him kot , thts why . heehe . its too complicating !! based on my frnds's relationships , mmm , COMPLICATING LIKE HELL !! aihh ... relationships 101 . NEVER get yourself involved in a relationship if you are nt ready . serious !! i knw it sounds common bt its trueee !!!! think abt it !! pls do . :)))) . currently listening to ' m5-wont go home wthout you ' . sad sad song . :s . reminds me of samira's house . haha . aimeen la ! tgh nk settle prob sara and akmal , psg lgu tu . haha . kne mara sebijik wth me . " yg bie ni duk psg lgu emo2 skang nie knp ?! " . haha , " mne la i tw ! channel nie yg psg !! " hahaha . aannnd .. smeorang gelak ! haha . pe la bie nie .. ppl say tht we're a sweet cpl ! YEA RGHT !! haha . he's soooo annoying tw tk !! rse cm nk sepak je ! haha . and like omg !! tht day i ws lepak-ing wth aimeen kt pdg , while waiting fr mama . then received a txt msg frm ths guy saying " if we like somebody blablabla ... wrong impression yadayadayada ... " WTF ?! weyhh ... well , somebody did say tht tht particular guy likes me . HAH ! dude !! you knw tht i have a boyf rght ?? sorray ! frnds only ! ngee . trus wthouth a doubt showed the msg to aimeen and he showed me the grin yg kerek ! :| aihh . sabar je laa . bie .. bie .. huhu . dnt you get it ?? i love YOU laaa ... bkn dorang !! geget kang !! ngee ~ nw bosan bosan bosan !! waiting a msg fr aimeen . aihh . lame btol bie mkn !! huhu . well , mntk diri dulu yerr .. ngee ~ toodles !!!

eeesh . benci la cmnie . :| tk skaa . aihh . sbar jelaa . huhu . smile smile smile ! and do the shimmy ! ngee ~

OMG !!! penat !! all week ! sports week ! well , evnthough i tk msk in any sports tp train handball bagai nk rak ! huhu . tdi kt school ade tarik tali and guess wht ? my baby masukk . ngee . sumpah COMEL glaaa dia tdi !! bajet commander !! cheh ! haha . actually before dia maen tarek tali he ws like being all emo-ish with me which made me like damn stressed up ! hee . during the tarik tali's event , i ws like cheering fr TEMENGGUNG (well , mostly ws cheering fr him :p) so , he ws like curi2 pndg laa . aww . baby ... ngeee . aftr tht trus okay . hee . he ws sooooo bangga wth himself ! konon a good commander laa ?? haha . i went crazy when he ws like tarik-ing the tali wth one hand and ws telling his teammates to hold ! OMG !! jd gila ! haha . then nw wht happen ?? saket tgn kn ?? haaa . pdn mka . :p . hee . syg bie ! then ptg lepak rmah samira rmai2 . gla best !! aimeen syg pn mls nk balek rmah soo dia mndi rmah sam jee . ngee . pemalas !! arnd 4 lbey cmtu sume dh pengsan kt living room rmah sam . haha . best sgt3 ! then g bola baling practice i ws the only u-18 player ! shit laa . huhu . cikgu !! cikgu kne gk syg saya lbey !! ngee . o then balek , g rmah sam since mama balek LAMBAT ! boleh tk kul 10 lbey boss tk kasi kuar lg ?? BANGANG ! hear tht en.whtever your name is . ??? bdo ke ape ??? if you dnt knw how to run a business then dnt start one idiot !!! sheesh ... heheh . bengang glaa babe !! okay la then . bosan laa . ngee . byee `

bored !! huhu . i love youuuuuuuuu !!!!! ngee ~ bye ~ heheh .